Morning pages

And it's another day and these are my public morning pages. The old self consciousness thing looms up, as ever.

In bed, and aware of tension from anger and stuff. Old, old feelings of fear and insecurity. But it's like I lost touch with myself, and maybe now my body is remembering who I am.

Work's coming in now. Work from all quarters, which is so good! Arty stuff, in the form of acting in film, and nice work that brings in the cash from weddings and such.

I have the scripts to look at. Ideas for my own films, and yet perhaps all the other projects are taking over now. Perhaps now I've hit on how the whole creative thing works, and it's good and interesting.

Things are good, and I know I'm repeating myself, but this is the morning pages and that's what happens. This is speed thinking and speed writing. It isn't meant to be good or clever, merely to get the juices flowing.

But it would be really nice to get writing stuff that's actually watchable and actually good and actually exciting or artistically valid or whatever.

Now I was thinking about what movie I can remake. I still have time to do it, question is what's the film going to be? It might be fun to do something like Castaway, as then I could do it with just myself in it. It might be fun to do something that's set in an obviously not desert island, but how can I do that? Maybe with GREENSCREEN? Or some kind of desert island background? Now could I shoot it all in greenscreen? that would be fun, wouldn't it? Set the background, and shoot it all in my bedrroom? What would I do for sand? I could buy coconuts and get some off bits of wood and palm tree stuff from outside. Find bits of foliage, light brown carpet for sand, and so on. Keep it all in the same vein as the cheap thing that this film is all about (cheap remake stuff)

And I'm thinking, too, about how I can sell the idea of the kind of work I do. How I can be a Hollywood actor and at the same time not be too precious about doing crap. Understand that it's all about doing stuff that gets out there into the universe, and not about doing stuff so carefully that you disappear up your own arse with fears of typecasting, etc.

Look at Heather Graham and her decision to do the porn star part in "Boogie Nights". Many actresses wouldn't have done that for fear of typecasting, and losing out on stardom as a result. But isn't that a worse kind of whoring than just doing something that's got artistic integrity? I think so. I mean, what's the point in not doing a great film and playing a real part just so you can play some artificial character in some meaningless, but hugely paying Hollywood blockbuster?

That's whoring yourself, and whoring your art.

FUck it. No, I've not wanted to do that crap and never have. And it's really sad when actors and directors do that kind of thing.

Daniel Day Lewis mentioned something about the business being not all that full of integrity, and he was spot on in what he said. I'll see if I can find it. A very interesting quote that I'll have to put on this blog and the movie one.

So. The castaway thing seems on, it would appear. Yellow carpet, maybe get some sand for close-ups. Do some "fishing" in the pool. FInd some way to film a plane crash (use the pool mayve at night) and even go down to the sea for some shots.

Green screen and/or prints of beach in the background.

Football as "Wilson". Raft made of floaty thing that washes up on the beach.

Meeting wife.

Work for firm, see wife again.

Keep package, find out it has all kinds of goodies in it, like SatNav, flashlight and so on. Two way radio.

Need Jeep Cherokee?

I can do this!!!!!

Use the bed as a raft.(tied up with bits of videotape)

Ice skates

I just need to get on with the script, and visualize exactly how I'm going to do this thing.

Five minutes. That's all it needs. I can start working with finding things like the greenscreen beach setting. Maybe find some green felt for the floor, too.

I can do this whole thing on greenscreen! And not bother about using Adobe After effects - just do it in Premiere.

Music. Will need the soundtrack, plus ocean sound, bird noises etc.

Also plane crash sounds for V/O. Could life the sound track from the actual film, maybe. Could find some way to be working for DHL or one of the other carriers. UPS. Maybe even the Royal Mail?

OK, Times up. Time for me to get on with it now.

This is going to be a fun exercise